Panic

My story and fear,

Confusion surrounding,

Worry all about,

My blood runs cold,

Heartbeat irregular.

Mind dropping.

Stomach turning

My pain returns,

The old friend,

Familiar face I once knew.

Always reliable,

Never wanted.

Heart beating out of my chest,

Mind racing,

Cigarette craving.

The desire for escape.

Unstopping, jerky and in pain.

My stomach, a dark pit.

I fall into the depths of my mind.

Darkness all-consuming,

Pain surrounding.

Strength weakened.

The panic floods back to me.

I am left here in darkness.

Awoken from a dream into a nightmare.

My panic returns. After a long absence.

I… I… I can’t take it.

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