Panicked Horror

Mind turning,

The horror,
Heart beating,
Heavy breathing,
A feeling,
The emptiness and panic,
Mind running and I cannot stop.

No escape,
Nowhere to hide.
I need help,
A sudden fit of panic.
Hoping to fall asleep, away into dreams.
To escape a surreal state of thinking panic.

Panic in the time.
All to try.

Don’t know what’s happening, stayed up late, suddenly frightened, panicking, mind rushing, thoughts empty and also full. Panicking right now.

My heart hurting, finding it hard to breathe, in my mind I feel an emergency, like calling an ambulance, but I’m trapped, alone in my head and can’t get out or talk to anyone.

Feeling like death right now and panicking, mind running, everything painful or empty.

Can’t go to sleep, need to, need to escape my mind, so frightened and panicked and really don’t know why.

Song Of Time

Song of time, thinking,
The time,
In all I sit,
Happy yet also sad,
Watching yet also afar.

The dichotomy,
Only made in the dichotomy,
The dichotomy to make it so true.
Without it,

A time,
Lost, found and just watching.
In the moment but also not.
Afar but also not.

A song of a time,
But also not,
Of being,
Being in the world so strange and also familiar,
All too familiar.

A song of time,

Song in time.

A time, reminder.