Have To Be

Have to be,
Have to be okay,
To be there and in place.
No room for want,
I just have to do.

Have is the word,
My modus operandi.

The place in time,
Place of mind.
Just in the time,
With the forceful mind,
Throwing all out.
Being or finding,
A way to be,
As I.
Have to be.

No choice but to tiresomely forge, find and walk.
This path to come,
Forge with all the fire of my light.
To tread this path.
Just “have”.
All I have, think.
All there is time for.

As always,
The time for having to be.

To make this path.
Push myself harder.
To go further.
Take the path tiredly travelled.
To make it through.

Worries, sadness, tiresome are only states.
No matter the strength.
Just to push on,
Push past.

To make this time,
Make this into time.

No choice but having to.
To find the time,
Find the mental space.

Having to be okay.
No matter the truth,
Or what I want.
No matter the need for a break.

Pushing past this.
Moving on to.
Just having to make and push this path forward.
Just have to.

Eventually will find rest,
In mind, soul and body.
Just have to.

Spoke a lot at the end of my last poem, worried, lots of worries came out I didn’t even think were there. Was listening to music and a thought for this one came.

Thinking of people, if they asked if I was okay, as they have other times. This poem is always the usual answer, am I okay? I have to be. Simple as that. Sad but true many times. Even if I put it all into my mind and forget so hard until I can’t remember. It’s just that I have to be fine. Have to be. Have so much to do I don’t have time, effort or even the mind to worry. Only to bury, write about and move on and do what I need to, even if I can’t, I just have to.

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