Protection

Protection of you,
Friend of mine,
Of kind.

A kind, always beside you.
Never hurt to come to you,
I will ensure,
Do what I can,
Make sure,
You, whole, kind,
Will be protected,
From all I can.

Maybe is what I promise.
Never knowing,
No guarantee,
Onty hope and freedom.

Places for the world, hope, kindness and poems.
My protection,
Me, your sword and shield.


Thinking of my dad and trying to help him, and also a friend of 7 years, recently met up with and hung out with a lot over Christmas, an amazing friend. One ‘d give my life for, a new person they know, better not fuck them over or they’ll have me to deal with.

They sound nice, cool, but they’ve never seen me if they hurt a friend of mine.

Just hoping everything works out for my friend! ❤️

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New Years Resolution

I never make New Years resolutions, told all of my family since before New Years that I don’t because these promises for the year can be made anytime and a failure of a resolution shouldn’t stop you trying until the next year.

Been thinking, of a lot tonight, past, present, feelings, others’ problems, pains and troubles they’ve been sharing with me and asking for help, my best friends sticking by me, those new people; interesting, amazing, and kind and those old friends you haven’t seen in a long time who when you meet up it was like you never were apart. So much changes yet also stays the same.

My New Years resolution, more a promise:

To keep away all hurt and pain, to do all I can to help everyone who is worth it. Hurt and pain may come, it is always solve-able, to those who choose. But my promise is to only help, only solve those that are worth the pain. To help friends with anything and everything I can, to go above and beyond, as this kind of pain, even if it hurts at the time, is a pain worth the life I’m living. To help others, help myself and be a better person.

Peace Within from Cognisance

Cognisance,
The time,
The moment.

What’s come,
Pain unneeded,
Realisation,
Being in place,
Whole and known.
Needing to let…
Let myself fing the peace inside.
Find a safe.

Surround myself,
Making the world brighter,
With those brighter in it.
Life can be beautiful,
If only one will make and find it.

Finding peace within,
Coming through cognisance,
A time to come,
Realisation from.

A time to come.
Moments not yet lived.
A life to be lived.
Life worth living.
Spreading my wings,
Filling my world with light,
The kindest people.

A time to come,
To be made.

The peace within,
Found.
Achieved.
Through cognisance.


Been thinking over things and things occurred to be, hitting me straight in the face. Those moments you realise something that you’ve been missing for so long but would have saved so much pain.

In Those Best Moments

In those best moments,
The bright light,
A peaceful night sky,
The world coming together

A thought spared,
A mere moment,
A split-second,
Dwelling on the darkness,
A past, in the past.

Such contrast,
A change.
Realisation from the abrupt.

In those best moments,
Realisation of what life is,
Realisation of what life means,
Happiness, kindness,
The kindest souls who are there,
No ask, mere kindness.

Those best moments,
Smiling out of nowhere,
Being in the moment,
Feeling life.
A eruption from my heart,
The feeling.
A movement,
My soul.

An end to the numb and the hurt.

A feeling long lost,
Long forgotten.
But now found.

The best moments,
The contrast,
Highlighting the path,
The journey,
From, now, where to.

In those best moments,
Living in the moment.
Kind pure moments of life.

From the past,
In the present,
Hope for the path to come,
Living in the moment,
In those best moments.


I’m feeling amazing right now, the day ended really amazingly, chatting to a friend to a friend until very, very late, relaxing after a very productive day. Everything, the good feeling is coming back, has come back, stronger with a realisation.

Writing this based on how sometimes the best moments always come with some thought of the worst parts, because of the contrast, the growth, the realisation, moving past, a realisation. A shining gem to be found in the darkest depths.

Across the Mirrored Image

Across the mirrored image,
The person,
An image,
Once was,
Now past.

Different.
Mirrored.
Me.

A different place,
Person,
Eventuality.

Across this mirror image.
A face,
Both foreign and the same.
Scarred, hurt, strong.
All at the same time.
Paths once tread.

Mistakes of the past.
Regrets,
Yet also none.
Mistakes,
Making the unique,
The strength and the resilience.

A shine,
A light,
To illuminate my darkness away.
Light my world up.
A difference,
Across this mirrored divide.


Been thinking right now, at night and can’t go to sleep, guess my mind’s wondering, thinking of the past, mistakes, learning from them and getting stronger.

How you can look in the mirror, of the ‘you’ of the past, one recognised but also not, a divide along a mirror of time.

This idea got me thinking.

New Fortune

New fortune,
New times to come,
Out with the old,
Mistakes, of the past.

The hurt, left to the past.
A new fortune to be found.
The present,
Those times of gold.

So many gone,
So many to come.
Only to move on.
To let them in.

To accept this new fortune.
The end to the past.
On towards a bright future,
A new fortune.
With those I care makes everything okay.

Time for this new fortune.
The times to come.

So much has changed.
So much will,
All to come,
This new fortune in time.

New fortunes await.

With Me

The feeling,
Friends all around.
My family through it all.
My friends to go to it all.
The people I stand by.
You with me.
I always with you.

No matter where we end up.
You with me,
We can conquer the world.
Forge out a path.
Living a life worth living.

Friends for life,
People in mine,
Golden times,
Precious memories,
To hold and to share.

Life,
The bright light overhead.
The feelings of bliss,
With being.
Making my life.
Sharing those times.

Those few moments with me.
Worth the world,
Kindness and care.
With me, the blissful feeling.

Knowing someone and them knowing me.
Being always there to be there for you.
Kindest people, closest friends.
With you.
With you.
At peace,
Just me,
Better than ever.
Spending those times with you.

Past Recompense

The past,
Replayed anew,
Yet also different.

A familiar sight,
Different,
Heartfelt.
A moment for recompense.
The only regret of my past.
A hurt caused by feeling.
A time out of mind,
Not thinking.

A trial of my past coping.

Seeing through it,
Bright as day.

To feel lifted,
Forgiven,
All made clear.

Righting my past wrongs,
Saying sorry, to those once hurt.
When… explaining.
Difficulties.
Trials of my past.
Long in the past and dead.
A final task,
An apology,
To make clear.
To make amends.

My past recompense.

Those Winter Drives

Those winter drives,
Singing along to those tunes.
Worries fading away,
A time away from time.

Winter outside,
Friendship and wamrth abundant.
Those drives into the dark,
Yet also known.
A place to hold,
A time to keep in memory.

Stops and starts.
Chatting along with laughs.
All a part of one.
A winter drive with friends,
The wind calling,
World open,
Times abundant.
Hope everpresent.

These.
Times rushing,
Flashing in my mind,
Feelings flashing past.

Nothing but a smile,
For those winter drives.

Looking Up

Looking up,
A world of possibility,
A tree of many branches.
Good deeds, nice people, fulfillment at every turn.

A good moment,
A precious one,
Found within the dark,
Waiting for the ignition.

The world gone light,
Like a summer’s morning after the cold night.

All looking up.
All looking bright.

Everything fitting into place,
My mind,
Knowing the place,
Seeing a path,
Feeling the determination.
Content. Living in reality.

It’s all looking up,
Like the joy seeing the northern lights looking up,
Into the sky.
Or seeing a baby’s smile of recognition.
A dog’s welcoming excitement at an arrival.

The world looking up,
World gone brighter.
A world of possibility,
If only I take look.
If only I look up and smile.

Content. Grateful. Kindness. Caring.

All of this is…
Looking up.


Written feeling great, grateful. Coming home has been good, better than usual, it was much needed. It’s been good, great, phenomenally amazing to see/chat to new friends, yet-to-be friends and old friends from long ago. But overall, all good friends, kind and always there to have a laugh, but also a feeling of knowing, kindness without any prerequisite.

Especially, well, this is for you K. An old friend, known you for 7 years, total trust we’ve shared. A person who can always message, I always have time for you, if not, I will make it. Always. Thanks for your help, kindness and… dunno how to say it but. A mere kind caring nature that doesn’t expect and that is exactly why I am and will always be there for you! ❤️